If you look back on the video cassette tapes
that my father documented our childhood on, you see some footage of me standing
and starring into a TV screen. I’m four feet away with glazed look and a slight
lean forward. The TV enraptures my 4 year old brain and I am too weak to fight
back. I am told this was some of the last days of cable tv in our house. I
think this was a wise decision. My parents obviously saw a danger here and the
cable was canceled.
After the cable went we were strictly on a
movie diet of entertainment and, being a religious family, that meant only
classics. Ben-hur, The wizard of OZ, Lawrence of Arabia, Citizen Kane, Treasure
island (1932), Abbot and Costello and Gone with the wind. If they predated the
1970’s, with some limited exceptions, we had seen it. I would watch the same
black and whites over and over again. These movie’s pop into my head from time
to time or a quote I’m reminded of when someone talks. They have become some part of me. They were
my moral compass as a child, educating me about a world in grey.
Childhood,
more often than not, is destroyed
quietly. We read something or a friend informs us on the truths of the world
and we take it in and add it to what make sense. We breathe in…and then out.
Not every story is romantic. Not every battle is glorious. Reality isn’t a good
story and it is rarely ever black and white.
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